I forgot how much I love the feel of Europe. it was the perfect day of travel, minus all the planes. I arrived to 16 degrees Celcius and sunny. I landed to discover the metro wasn't running and immediately had to start solving problems. I left the hostel and ended up wandering alleys for 3 hours discovering small cultural bits of the city. I live for this.
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Sometimes I have this flash of what my life could be like if I were not myself. For example: Today I walked past this empty bar and the bartender was very cute and I thought to myself "maybe I'll just go in, kiss him, quit my job and start a new life." And then I remembered who I was.
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6 years ago I was just dreaming about leaving America to come to Spain. If you had told me then that I'd be visiting here for Christmas twice, I never would have believed you.
I'm back to thinking about how I'm going to have big decisions to make in a year. *sigh*
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I know I've only been traveling for a few days, but I already needed to escape to the countryside. to be in silence. Enough of this "baroque" and "renaissance" style. Give me trees and mountains!
19/12/17
This trip is great, but it'd be better if you were holding my hand.
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Spain. Back to country #7. I'll make it to #39 by the new year, but I'm looking really forward to #40. I have a feeling #40 will be spectacular.
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I was ahead in my budget, so I went shopping at the market. Whoops! Life is too good to worry about cash.
20/12/17
Sometimes I feel like I'm rushing through places, and others I feel like i'm doing them just right.
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Tossing and turning and stress. I cannot take it.
21/12/17
Woke up after too little sleep to terrible news about my apartment back home. I try to brush if off and just enjoy the day for what it is.
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Met a great group of people and discussed how difficult it is for men traveling solo. They said they felt strange approaching women because they didn't want to seem creepy. They said it is equally difficult to approach other men. I need to start being out there more. Get my social side going and push myself.
22/12/17
I haven't said it in awhile, but I LOVE trains! I just saw these amazing cliffs and just wanted to get out and wander. similar feelings for a tree. Saw it and was dying to sit under it with a good book.
23/12/17
Things that I am learning to appreciate
1) That I'm getting closer to financial freedom and this allows me to travel how I want.
2) My instincts to follow little paths and trails that lead me to beautiful and wonderful things.
24/12/17
I walked home down lonely Christmas eve streets and suddenly I felt ridiculously sad. Mostly because I feel guilty about being away from home again this year. I got back to the hostel and felt sorry for myself until I realized this was a choice I was making. So I went out and met up with some fellow couchsurfers. It is easy to feel alone, but it is also easy to combat it.
3/1/18
I don't know why, but I just did not vibe with Lisbon. I'm so glad I'm back in Barcelona. I spent the night wandering the streets, and singing (accidentally) out loud. I am so happy about my life.
4/1/18
I've been doing a lot of people watching on this trip. The ones I admire the most are the dads playing hide and seek with their kids at tall of these boring monuments, and the kids making the most out of what is possible a very boring situation for them. And that right there tells me everything I need to know about where I am and where I want to go.
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One of those nights where (meh) couchsurfing meet-ups, (meh) craft beer, and (meh) live music leads to a fantastic walk home in the dark with amazing weather and my music, but greatly lacking in stars. I am so grateful for what I have been given and where I have been.
5/1/18
I saw a cute old couple sharing a pastry and a coffee. The smile on her face and the kindness in his eyes reminded me of you. Someday we will be them.
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| Unwashed hair, lack of sleep and sunshine. Will you be mine forever? |
