I am about to leave my house and I actually cannot feel my body. I just need to get to Kazakhstan. Home is going to be fucking confusing, , traveling was confusing, and Montenegro is confusing, so if I can just get there, then no more confusion. I'm just there and i'll deal with it. Right?
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I met a woman while waiting to board, and she kept saying how much she admired me. I may have even convinced her to go to Kazakhstan at some point. When I meet well traveled older people who still managed to have a family it makes me smile.
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You know what is really strange....when everyone around you speaks English
20/7/17
I have an emotionally abusive relationship with this city.
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The worst part about being in America is being able to understand what everyone is saying all around you. Especially men's comments about you.
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The look in my brothers eye when he plays music. I want that.
3/8/17
After a few weeks I start to feel that Minnesota nice start to kick in. I start to believe that I would be happy with a life here. That's when I know I need to move on
7/8/17
I know it is time to leave, because I suddenly want desperately to stay.
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I requested a sad song and they told me beer tastes better without salt.
8/8/17
And the back of my mind still asks, "What if..."
I don't want to be afraid of taking chances just because life is comfortable.
9/8/17
I should have learned more Russian, I should have done more research. Here comes the part where I freak out about my life.
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